Ladies and Gentlemen, I would like to welcome you all to the Santoshrao show.
As they say Easy come Easy go. Thats how life has been with me when it comes to females who came into my life.They come they turn your life upside down and then they vanish into thin air. As men have rightly said one will never know what women want...
How funny love is ? It tries o make you happy and sad, it makes you feel excited and depressed , its like a oxymoron in itself. How wonderful life would be if you end being with the person you love.
You ending up with her is a totally different matter. The thing is women always leave a big impression in your hearts, I guess that is how life is. Below I have compiled a small list of girls who left an impression in my life.
Enough of all that crap here is the list of girls in my life - select gName, date_time, type, period, result, remark from life_santosh order by date_time asc;
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Chapter 1: KK
I shall refer to this beautiful being as KK. Man o man was she beautiful, fell in love with her the moment I saw her. Now don't go all wandering into dream land, this was I think in my 4-5th standard. We were in the same school used to go in the same bus, call it amateur love or call it fascination or attraction. The fact of the matter is that she left an impact on my life. And believe when I say my sexual life is active is some way or the other since primary school. Now aint that something to look upto. Both of us had a certain amount of attraction towards each other. Not knowing where it will go where will it lead to, wht is it that we were doing we just let our emotions flow. It kinda fizzled out when she moved to a different school, all that playing and spending time together in the bus was gone. And we moved on like nothing happened never spoke of her again till today. Met her a couple of times after we matured tried to re-kindle the relationship but was shit scared to even bring up the topic of time we had spent together. Let me tell you something about her, she was this tom-boyish girl who liked to play cricket and things like that. Imagine a girl sitting on a compound wall with a leg on each side. She had this short, boyinsh kinda hair. You won' t believe me I am now 27 but still have an innate fascination for short hair.
Chapter 2: Priyanka
She was an item in the making, this is some where around 5-6th grade. Man o man was she awesome. No no nothing happened, i kinda think she knew I liked here that was about it.
She was a kashmiri chick. The reason I remeber her distinctly is because me and friend of mine were both hitting on her. And we used to hit on her big time and make statements like jisse pat gayi usski. Isn't that funny, I mean if you think about it now. She was like super beautiful, lost touch with her over time. She moved out of the school and that was it. Unlike now those days there was no concept of email address of mobile numbers. There were merely bsnl landlines.
Like any other happy memoirs of ones life, she came she conquered and then she went.
Chapter 3: SR
Sonee was probably the sweetest thing that happened to me. Cannot even remember why we broke up essentially. She was in my class, i think this was in the 9th standard. I had asked her out through a mutual friend of mine, the message which was passed on through the intermediate was that "this guys likes you, do you like him?" Probably the funniest thing one could ask a female. But the relationship did last for an year almost and we used to do the most cutest things, we used to go the library and sit close to each other cuddling each others legs. There wasn't absolutely any sort of sexual expectations or any sort of intimacy of that kind. We used to exchange greeting cards and love letters and what not. It was sweet, I wonder what happened to her. It been quite some time now. It was sweet and I would like to keep it that way. :)
Chapter 4: Ab
Yes, name changed as I would not like to hurt any sentiments here. I absolutely adored this girl, was charming, good looking and was hell of a friend. The most enticing thing about her was that she was more of a guy than a girl, was almost a tom-boy and i loved that about her. The issue here was that their were many like me, who liked her. I was one amongst the many admirers that she had. And I believe she knew this, I think she too liked the attention. Things never materialized between the two of us, but yeah I would like to mention I will never forget about her.
Chapter 5:Bhobho
This was the only real serious relationship that I have even been into. She was in my college but in a different department. The first time we met was in an extra "Physics Practical", check out the co-incidence aaye. Both had missed a practical and for some heavenly reason missed the same freaking experiment. And hence we were asked to do the practical together, that is when I met her the first time and believe me when I say this the connection was instant. We knew instantly that we matched mentally, exchanged email address and then there was no looking back. Its been 8 yrs since we have last spoken but still I have a smile on my face remembering the first time I met her. We spoke day in and day out, hung out perenially whenever we were in college. Both of us knew we liked each other, its was like n unsaid treaty. Both knew it but neither of us said it out loud, it was as if "it was meant to be".
After the exams it was the results which triggered the downfall of our relationship. Both of us were hit hard with ATKTs, and the coming semester she went year down because of the number of terms remaining. She came to me one day and said , "My parents know we have been going around and I will not be able to speak with you anymore". I howled pleaded and begged her to give "us" a chance. She was just not ready to accept the fact that she will ever be able to speak to her parents about me and hence saw no point in pursuing this great thing that we had. Till now I am not sure what went wrong, and how but that was without a doubt the best year of my life. The breakup left me shattered, broken and no longer trusted women kind. Shattered and broken I ran into her once over Y!IM and vented my frustrations on her and this would have been easily 3-4 years after the relationship. That was the last time I saw of her, I now realize that maybe she had her reasons and that I shouldnt have vented out on her, but what would I have done. Its been 8 years and I still think about her sometimes. She is now married and settled in the U.S. If ever in the reamining of this excuse for a life I run into her, I would like to tell her how much I loved her then and that she was the best thing that happened to me in my life .
Chapter 6: PR
Having hurt myself inside out, I was looking for a rebound. Having lost all belief in emotional relationships I was desperate to have an affair desperate to have a female in my life again. Belive me when I say this the vacumm created by the departure of the person you love makes you do crazy thigns and leaves you desperate to find someone to fill that black hole.
With a fling in my mind I started going around with a classmate of mine. She was elder to me by a couple of years. I think she fell for me, and I mis used that opportunity for my benifit. I regret having done that but then I was not thinking straight. I ended up hurting this girl very very badly and if I could go back and change things - I would never never do it again.
If you are reading this "I am sorry"
Chapter 7: SD
After having realized how much I could hurt someone. I set on a cautious path to not hurt anybody I would get involved with. There was this girl at my work place, we would always fight an used to despise each other. I had never imagined in my wildest dream about getting involved with her. The whole thing was one big scam, both of us played correct parts, neither of us was serious and had not tied strings around each other. For the first time in my life I had experienced a casual affair.
I had many one date chicks in my life to name a few, my first date was with an super hotie in school. Then there was this school friend with me in college, went out with her a coulpe of times got desperate and proposed. Nothing happened it was just fun. Then there was a mutual friend, I really fancied her, but she was too much of a bitch for me to handle though.
But some one very rightly said you only fall in love once in your lives. Funny ain't it.
Am about to get married soon, wait till my fiance reads this, she is going to faint. Well she knows most of it, I guess she only knows most of it.
